WTF?!?!?!?!

I knew I wasn't going to make it through the day without some type of arguement. I had two of them. One person made it seem like it was much bigger than what it really was and it left me confused... we finally got past it but I was like "Is this really necessary?", the other person, well honestly it wasn't an argument. I guess this person was annoyed with me, I don't know what I did wrong, but I was gonna video phone them to show them how far I had gotten on their scarf...and then I got my head bitten off... I'm not really used to that, so I'm like blown right now...I just feel sad because it really started off as me meaning well and checking up on their day...they text me about something else, I answered them back... they never answered me back, so I text them "I guess you are busy..." but I saw them online so I IMed because I was dumb excited and was gonna show them how excited I was about the scarf I made them... and then I was bitten... I didnt even know what to say... I just told them that I didnt know what I was doing wrong, and if I was annoying them then sorry and they signed off..... *insert jaw drop here*

I know that I act like things roll off my back but this really bothered me because I was truly and honestly sincere and I didn't know what I did... so I told them I would give them their space... I was embarassed because I don't know what I said or did wrong... I even glanced over the messages....I'm baffled and I'm hurt, and I guess there is nothing else to do at this point...

I'm Feeling Some Kind of Way....

I remember there being a time where I was never worried about anything at all. I mean I have always been a responsible person, very live and let live, and I mind my own business. I've been hurting alot lately. I'm a very sensitive person, and I do wear my heart on my sleeve, and if I feel like the pressure is too much then, well...I tend to shut down. Well I'm shutting down. To be honest, I thought for the most part that this year was gonna start off with a bang and I know it's only been what, 14 days into the New Year, but I've really been feeling down...more depressed than usual.

Anyone who knows me, knows that if you are good to me, I'll be twice as good to you because I respect and value a friendship as much as any other relationship-- friendships are the foundation to just about anything, but yeah... I'm feeling some kind of way about how people think they can just do and say whatever they want to me and I'm not supposed to get hurt by it....today I got home and had to struggle not to cry, but I sucked it up. As tall as I am, and as stern as my face can be, I'm a big softee and I take things to heart! I really don't know what this post is about anymore, I realized that I've been honest with people in telling them that I like jokes like the next person, but it seems like I set myself up for disappointment because people think that I am someone that is a sucker and they can talk sideways to me.
I think I'm hurting because I feel like I am not being heard. I listen to everyone else's problems but I've realized that people only look out for themselves....I can;t be a ruthless person and just tell everybody to screw off, but what I can do is get rid of the toxic people in my life.... the people that hurt me on a daily basis....